Something I've learnt today.....

Not too sure if it is the case for you but i tend to be so critical to my spouse, my kids when things don't turn out the way I want it to be ......... when faith is not eating her food promptly and demanded to be fed all the time, even though she is nearly4, when dan arrived half and hour late to pick me up from office for our journey home, or when Kieran spits his pacifier on the floor for the 5th time round..... I just can't control the inner fire within and the monster of negative emotions begin to take over...... sometimes, i just need to enrol for anger management classes.

I was waiting for faith at her usual ballerina class, in the hot stuffy common area at the community centre, peeping into her classroom in random just to ensure that she is behaving well. Then came a lady who is almost my age, carrying her 2nd daughter and was waiting for her elder daughter to finish class as well. From her face, she beams with such positivenss, and she greets all, including her mischievous 2nd daughter with so much love and kind words. Those who bring sunshine to their lives cannot help but bring it to others. And I begin to wonder ...... ...... how did she do that.... how can she cope with so much and yet appear to be so happy and loving to those around her???

Then it struck me , that it might be ME that is too judgemental and demanding. I realized that I tend to take things around me for granted and become unappreciative of those who are dear to me. I once read an article about couples.. that it is easy to just break off and get a divorce when things don't turn out well, but it is tough to maintain a loving and healthy relationship with your spouse, especially in this demanding world with both spouse working and having different circle of friends. The challenge in love is not igniting the flame, but in keeping the flame burning through the darkest hours.

I decided that I will learn to be more loving towards my family and friends, that it is ok to spill the milk on the floor and we are just humans to make mistakes. Demanding perfection at all times will not only make my life miserable but also to those I love dearly. I realised that I have so much of inner fears that I need to work on. I guessed, If i wanna get to the end of the rainbow, i will first have to learn to put up with the rain.

End note : "Life is neither a bed of roses nor a carpet of thorns; it's just what you make of it." -Source Unknown